Assalamu'alaikum...
wooohhooo... hahahha. should i be happy or not masuk semester baru ni? mestilahhh... happy.
well, as it's the last semester the i'll be going through for my degree( in Shaa Allah. Amin)
oh ya, before that, i want to share with you all (tho there's nobody read my blog) about my result for the last semester. Alhamdulillah... syukur pada Allah because i manage to get dean's list. Again!! (am sooo happy). As am not expected to pass with flying colours. well i guess everyone knows their effort, so do I. i don't think so that i study hard for the last semester as before. tapi mungkin rezeki Allah nak bagi. Alhamdulillah. moga berkat.
sejujurnya, bagi pendapat akulah, everybody reserves for their effort. so, kurang usaha kuranglah berjayanya. sebab tu aku agak risau bila tunggu keputusan exam. dan aku ready if i have to repeat or else i didn;t get dean list. tapi perancangan Allah tu terbaik. ada hikmahnya, mungkin Allah nak aku lebih berusaha lagi. In Shaa Allah... amin...
dan bagi pendapat akulah, aku tak jeles pon kalau kawan aku dapat lebih baik as they deserve because that was their effort to strive for excellent. kan. jeles kalau diaorg berlumba2 buat kebaikan takpelah. menuntut ilmu contohnya atau bersedekah kan? hmm... peringatan untuk akulah terutamanya.
oh ye sebelum terlupa. biasalah. aku kalu minggu baru-baru ni diam macam tak berapa okay. kalau hari ada Monday blues. macam aku ada Semester Blues. hahahaa (ye aku yang wujudkan term tu). how to describe ek hmmm let me give an example. those feelings like... ermm you want to be alone. or just isolate yourself. tak nak jumpa sapa2. the feelings like i hate everybody around me. rasa nak nangis...
those feeling tetiba je. because i am not the introvert person tapi tulah. mungkin semester baru. mungkin. (actually dah final year, apa yang barunya. haha). and you can't get rid those feeling macam petik jari terus hilang. it takes time. *sigh
contoh macam hari ni, should be my housemate and i of course nak pergi ke permatang pauh and this girl (my housemate too) is our driver. the problem is i just can't accept alasan dia bila dia kata "aku tak pergi kalau si w ni tak pergi. it's like, hey, itu kan kereta awak, and you are the driver. kenapa nak tunggu keputusan orang lain for you to decide. kitorg ni pon kawan awak jugak taw. i am not blaming her sebab tak bawak, (tho i feel quite dissapointed) cuma jangan bagi alasan macam tu. ye, mungkin that girl try to jaga hati kitorg tapi the alasan, hmmm.. well, setiap orang hatinya berbeza-beza. mungkin kalau aku pon macam tu juga. mungkin (try to be positive).
and also, i hate the feeling menyusahkan orang. sebab rasa dia macam "sapa je yang willingly nak bawak kita ke sana ke sini?" hati kecil aku berkata. chewahhhh. hhhihi
entahlah. geram pon ye. sakit hati pon yer bila fasiliti jauh sangat nak perginya. mungkin aku buat gila. pergi sensorang. hahaha (ye aku pernah buat. tapi permatang pauh lah) dulu dekat. sekarang dah jauh. *sigh again
and i also ada je kawan yang boleh bawakkan (kot) tapi again, rasa serba salah sebab nanti confirm menyusahkan orang . hati orang. tak boleh nak jangka. dhlah. roommate aku dah nak tidur ni. nanti aku sambung lagi.
adios amigos. Chiao!
sebelum tamat,
manusia penting diri,
kau manusia,
aku manusia,
kita manusia,
equalnya kau dan aku manusia,
penting diri.
